Yann Vernier’s Neighborhood

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!! OOh I am so frustrated. I feel like I have been working my fingers off and then it is one huge obstical over the next; so I decided lets talk.

   " Inhales Slowly; Now exhales" let me tell you a story.

  Once upon a time there was this woman.. She knew and knows that for the last at least 8 years of her married life that the path that her and her husband had chose " though not completely by choice" was absolutly not the right one.  No one could say that these people were (not making it) ; but certainly the two people were only surviving NOT LIVING, NOT THRIVING, NOT ENJOYING LIFE, JUST SURVIVING, for a long time Mesha thought that surviving was acceptable even heroic at times. Until one day her eyes were opened.....

She learned about a man named Kevin Hogan; for the first time she started to see that there was potential to be great and the best part was that this genious taught about everything that she loved and was passionate about.  Mesha had never thought before that maybe a person could work and enjoy what they did in life goin home proud and fulfilled everyday.  So was that even really work; because every new thing learned felt so good it was not work to her it felt like a child that had just discovered how fun using their imagination could be.

  So she decided to hop a plane and go meet this man when all of the sudden she got very ill and had to go into emergency surgery.  But she wasn't willing to let the opportunity pass by so she sent her husband; because not only did she love him but she wanted him to feel the excitement that she did. 

So off on a plane he left that next day.  She recovered and got out of the hospital and then she went to work.  She delved into the information that she had in front of her and learned more by researching more of these great people called " influencers" Eventually she found a select few that she felt were a notch above the rest and wanted to tell the world about them.  So she paid to get a website and met a challenge designing it every step of the way.  Almost to the point that she wanted to quit but she remembered what her idol had said " when times get hard work harder"  If you want to check him out here is his website www.kevinhogan.com

Anyway she started anew and worked even harder designing a new website from scratch she was so proud of it; it was called meshasexperts.com and it was more beautiful, fun, informational, and resourceful than even her first attempt all she had to do was put on the finishing touches.... So she saved it in two different places in her hard drive so that by actually this evening it would be up and running.  She was so proud that she let her husband in to see her masterpiece.  He was so proud of her and then asked if he could check his email. 

So he sits down to check his email sipping his drink when all of a sudden.......

HE KNOCKS OVER HIS MT.DEW AND FRIES MESHA'S COMPUTER!!!!!!

What happens next "i'm not sure mesha has been mad all day and went and took a nap. if you couldn't tell that was me. " Well I am now at a family members house typing this. I am crushed and frustrated.  This is normally where I would quit to tell you the truth.  But I know that the information I have is good.

I am sick of surviving!!! I want to thrive so now' ; I am goin to take one step at a time and I will beat this. I do not have money for another computer so it will be much harder; but I have seen that there is something better and I am not going to give up and go back to what is COMFORTABLE AND THAT IS SURVIVING.

I WILL THRIVE, BUT IT LOOKS LIKE I WILL HAVE TO GIVE IT MY ALL AND THEN HOW SWEET WILL THE VICTORY TASTE.

Mesha Casper  " Still gonna see u at the top!"

I wanted to thank everyone for being so nice to comment. I will be back on top of my game in a week or so. I have felt like crap; But I have a lot of things that are very necessary to finish. So I don't have time to be sick. I think I will bug bomb the house to get rid of all of the lesbian spiders trying to suck my blood. 
  Well I have been working really hard on a new website. It is very frustrating because I sometimes feel that when it comes to computer stuff that the directions have not been converted to english yet. 
  But a smart man said something that inspired me you may know him Steve Chambers a 1000 mile journey begins with one step. So true and that is what I will do one step at a time.
Thanks to all of you have a great day all you hard workers.
sincerely,
Mesha:)  

   How are all of you tonight? I really need some help and some smart peoples opinion. 
One thing I want to make a point of is that I absolutely HATE medical doctors; But something happened and I need advice.  In the night I was bit by a ugly, creepy, freaky looking brownish spider on the neck last night.  I actually thought that it was just a bad dream; because I was very tired and I tried to smash it but I couldn't get it.  Anyway I told Steven about it today while I was getting dressed.
  That is when he said you need to go look at your neck.  I then saw a bite exactly where the spider had been on my neck.  I didn't really pay much attention; but Steven being a loving husband kept checking my neck all day.  Throughout the day the two little puncture holes then got discolored and is now looking as if it is starting to make a blister type sore.  Well here is a picture. So here is the question. Today we run out of medical insurance and I was not feeling pain this morning; but Right now it is 6:00pm and :I have the chills, I ache everywhere mostly in my neck, shoulders, arms, legs,back.  I also am sick to my stomach and feel very tired.  Mostly the chief complaint is pain.  I was just thinking I could watch it; because we owe the hospital money and even with insurance it is more than I feel justified to spend.  Do you guys think I should wait this out? I also really don't want to look stupid.  And to weigh in on everything I am stressed and have been tired; but this feels a lot different.  Please give me suggestions if you would I would really appreciate it. 
  Well I don't blame the bastard spider anyway who could resist me I am really sweet inside and out.LOL And I was in my skivveys at the time.ha ha LOL

Spider bite 003

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  Sometimes I think that life moves a little too fast don't you think.  I am committed to success but as John Ho said it best enjoy the journey and I haven't really enjoyed it so far.  It has kind of been more like 70/30.  Well I just sat back had some popcorn chilled in my nothings and watched Kevin Hogan's Boot camp Las Vegas.  If that paints a picture you would rather not see think of Jessica Alba in her nothings eating some popcorn; 
wow that worked she is really hot. Next time I talk about undies she will be the analogy:) 
Well I was so moved by Hogan's Boot Camp I can hardly contain myself I wish that I could just snap my fingers, the money would be there and I could join his inner circle and learn more.  That to me would be full out fun. 
I did take some action though I was inspired to make a web page of affiliates; but it would only be people that really inspire ME to move where I can sit and enjoy talking about them and we can both win.  So I got blog i360 from Deb Micek who is also really cool and it will be a fun project. 
I am going to call it myrealexperts.com. 
so everyone enjoy your evening and have fun!
Your Friend Mesha:) 

I love today. It is a good day.  I have a path and timeline in place and I finally see it all falling into place when my life normally seems to be running on survival mode. I feel happy and now I feel that I am working hard for a passion that I love. I am going to be selling some art ' motivational pictures' and then working my way into kevin hogan's circle and then help others reach their dreams and goals.  That is my passion.  I just have always been too hard on myself about my art; but I think that that has always just truely been a fear of success that held me back.
Everyone have a great Day!!!  I made this for kevin hogan on the back of it I wrote " everyone is given seconds and microseconds in life and what we do with those makes us either ordinary or extraordinary. If you look close I have hidden his name in it.  I was so happy that he enjoyed it.

Art 007

  It  is such a beautiful day here in Utah.  If I were not so busy with the rest of life I absolutely would be diggin in the dirt looking for my next big find.  I love hunting for dinosaur bones on days like this.  Sometimes it makes me wonder am I doing what I should be doing in life? I am passionate about Kevin Hogan's work almost to the point that it is humorous. 

I am very adventurous and I love art; but one of the things I love most is there are around 500 acres of land that whenever life got hard I would go digging up dinosaur bones; mostly I found beautiful shells that hadn't seen the light of day for millions of years ; But there is a secret spot that I have found two very big finds at.  One of my finds was a complete tortoise shell.  It was sooo beautiful and I was able to get it out in two large pieces that I later was able to clean and glue back together; with elmers glue of all things.  The shell was covered in little sea shells and was a gorgeous blackish redish tone.  Never had I seen something so marvelous.  Next  about three months later I found my best find yet though it was smaller.  I just had three full bones One I was not able to dig out whole so I got it out in three pieces; the most spectacular thing about it was the mystery and that the marrow in the bone was now crystalized.  I brought these finds into the museum in Vernal and asked about them?  I already knew about the tortoise ; but I wanted to know more like date and so on.  Then the most exciting the three bones  "What species were they, I wondered was this animal a plant eater or a carnivor. Was this a mammal perhaps?  That would be extremely rare."

Well of course I was barragged with questions.  Did I get them on my own land.  Was the land owned by the indian tribe and if it was my land could they dig up the rest.  It turned out that I did find a more rare dinosaur called a titanothere. I learned that it was an herbavore and that it had hooves like a horse; but actually looked more like a rhinocerous. The sad part is that the person that owns this land would only allow me on it and made me swear not to ever reveal it's location to anyone; and I keep a promise.  There are still bones up there and if You repell off of the edge of the cliff there and go up underneath a cavelike structure and look up you can actually see ribs of a dinosaur and I would love for the museum to get those because I will never bother a bone or fossil that I think that I might destroy.
Anyway the question is was I the one that was supposed to be digging all my life and loving it, or could I be having the same excitement and passion learning covert hypnosis and body language by Kevin Hogan.  Oh whoever doesn't know him by now go check him out at www.kevinhogan.com. 
HMMM maybe I can still find a way to do both? :)

  I see mother's Day differently than I think that a lot of people do. Every year that it comes around for 5 years now I have seen it in my life as a triumph.  I used to wonder if I would see my son on the next Mother's Day.  He was always the reason I have fought so hard against any odds that have been put in my way.  I always fought hard to live for the love of my husband; but my son is different I can't go first.  There is too much that only I can give and teach him and we both know that.  I look and think are we celebrating Mother's for all of the hard work that a mother puts into raising her child or are people like me; Celebrating that now for the fifth year I get to be a mother to my son.  I reflect on my decisions that I have made: some were right some were wrong; but I know for sure that my little boy loves me even when I stumble and fall or if I have to be "shaky mom, or hospital mom" for a while.  I am just proud to say that I am a MOM.

So this year I have decided to be a pretty, healthy, and wealthy, successful mom.  I have been selling Tupperware to get the bills paid and came up with a fun sells tactic that I am going to use.  heehee

It Goes like this.....

SAV'IN YOUR BACON PARTY.    

Mother's Day is just around the corner.  You could.....
1. Get her flowers; but flowers die.
2. Get her some chocolates or candy; then you can sit and listen to how bad she feels, because she thinks she is gaining weight.  You may even get the dreaded question "Honey, do I look as skinny as her or do you think I look more like that lady ? Absolutly  a no win situation here buddy.LOL
3. You could play it safe and get her a card with some money in it and then she will just think that you either waited until the last minute, or you just plain out forgot and that this was the best you could do.
4.  You could buy her some sexy ligerie ;  "But who is that present REALLY for?"
5. Best of all:  You could get us something that lasts forever, a shiny rock that we might like for around 1000.00 or more.

(OR)  for around 50 dollars or less you could buy us something that also would last "forever"; that we could actually use.  You could go to my GUYS ONLY tupperware party.
Anyone who is a "real" man is going to be there.  And if she gets excited about her new kitchen addition and uses it it will be a win /win for you both and you will go away, looking like you really thought and cared about your special someone.  But to sweeten the pot During the party it will be an all you can eat BBQ RIB party and all you can eat chicken wings.  See ya there.

LOL I am giving these invites to the guys that I see in my church.  I hope it goes well.  Oh well even if it doesn't it was still fun to talk about. 

Okay we left off at celebration of success;  sipping wine and laughing because Kevin says to me " Ya know Mesha; you are the craziest person I know and man does that work for ya."

SO  THE LESSON IS (Roll Drum Please)

MESHA CAN GET SLEEP, BE HAPPY, AND HEALTHY EVEN SOON TO BE RICH!"

Mesha the friendly ghost and future idol and success coach.

Okay pull up a chair, kick off your shoes, and lets pour a glass of the bubbly.

I Just had one of the best nights sleep ; that I have ever had last night. ( holding for applause).

so now I can be the friendly ghost again not the easily irritated and sometimes irrational ghost.  So lets get to it.  I want to tell you about the coolest dream ever that I had too; and I do not normally remember dreams so this was quite significant for me.

so this is how the dream went. 

I get up in the morning and go and do what I do every morning; I check my mail and my blog and see if anyone commented.  To my amazment there was 74 comments fo my most recent post.  so I go in and check them.  It turns out that there is all of Kevin Hogan's clan and they are all talking about how excited they are for the biggest convention that Hogan has had.  Then I Go check Kevin Hogans page to see what he had written.  To my astonishment He is describing who is going to be guest speakers and says that there is goin to be a brilliant lady there named Mesha Casper that had made it to the top along with.  April Braswell and jjjalopy.  We then hold the three day conference in France and all of us go up to a rediculously nice suite to celebrate with Kevin on the succ